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November 20th, 2009

mowmow

02:11 pm - Quit your life and stay with me. So this week I was only Scheduled for two days which suckss! I went out to Lake La Monday. hung out with the family. My aunt got a puppy and she is soo cute! Tuesday I didn;t do much during the day, but Sam and Sarah came over for a little bit during the evening. We didn't do much just sat around talking, and Sarah made Snow ball cookies, and then we ate Chips and Salsa. it was nice tho. I miss hanging out with them! I came home Wednsday. Me and my Aunt went to Castco, and Winco. Then we we were meeting michelle, and what do you know she surprised me with Dyanna =]] We ate Panera for lunch. Then we went to Sally's my aunt left and us girls went to Ross then the mall. We met Lizzy and Becka at Chipotle I surley did NOT eat! haha. After that we went to Winco. Then home, then me and Dyanna went and picked Justin up from work, took him to his house to get a few things, then went back to mine becuase Michelle was making dinner. Me and Dyanna with Charlie to Target and then winco again. I didn't go in winco tho I go there way to much hahaha! Went home ate dinner, then around 7 we brought Kristie dinner to work for her. And michelle dropped me and Dyanna off at Tony's cause it was his Bday and we brought him cupcakes! We watched up with him and David. I love that movie! then we started watching Land of the Lost [lame ass movie] and then michelle picked us up. Me and Dyanna watched our CSI and then went to sleep. I worked yesterday. The first part of the day was no bueno. I hate people. but after lunch everything was fine. I will probably not be working on registers much anymore, everyone wants me to work out on the floor which I don't mind because then I won't have to deal with people much. I am picking a shift up tomorrow so three days now for this week lol. Possibly but probably won't supposed to hang out with Anthony this weekend, but it is whatever if we don't I am starting to be whatever toward him. which is good!! This week is already going to be thanksgiving jeeze. Where have my days gone? lol. Well thats about it for now... <33 Current Mood: good Current Music: Mxpx

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November 19th, 2009

tadydid

05:56 pm My store is closing in January which means I'm out of a job in a few months. Also, my grandfather is dying. That's my life right now. When it rains, it pours.

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01:36 am - Fuck. I could watch " Zack and Miri make a porno" again, But im lazy and i dont want to press play on the dvd player. Ive been very stressed out lately, I dont know what from either- I had Farnham tuesday and so i woke up mad early, got dressed and walked myself out into the cold ass air, it was 46 when i left my house; i talk the therapists ear off for an hour and i walk home; in a good mood, so i go in, and eat some speggetti-o's you know the ones with the little mermaid cutouts, well i ate those, dino nuggets and a hot pocket, I refuse to eat breakfast so when im home i eat like a monster. So im eating my grub, minding my own buisness, and becka comes and she's like i want some dino nuggz, so im like ok, Ill make some; so i sit on the couch and start munching down like i havent had anything to eat, which i havent.. this bitch says " Krrrrrysten is a faaaaaattttt assss bitchhhh", "sheeee issss ssssoooo obesssssssssseee" kept saying it over and over again, so i get up and pour myself some tea, hoping that she would stop, well she didnt, she's hitting me with a phone book saying the same shit over and over again, and i told her to stop NUMEROUS times- with her my patience is LOW!! and well im an emotional person. so i get up and im bitching at her, i feel my whole body tremble, i wanted to smash her face into the wall so bad, but i didnt, so i go to make my way up stairs and she's still saying shit, and she's yelling at me, " oh you do the same thing, you call me fat" Im like becka, you are. Im 22 and YOU are 12, big diffrence sweet heart. so i go upstairs in my room, and i just o balistic, I turn on the radio sit there for a second, and try to cut my wrists. (im making this a habit now a days and i dk why) so i use a metal part of a pen, the sharp side- then im searching thru my dresser and i found a knife, im like oh great, so i dig that it, and I did make it bleed a little, it didnt hurt so bad until after the fact. well i go downstairs, still upset and call derek on the phone bawling my eyes out on the phone to him about killing myself and asking him to find me a ride to Mental Health, I was so serious by this time, that i didnt give a fuck. so i left. derek ended up coming over, he's like Ill meet you halfway down your street, well i ended up takling another street and he found me, two blocks down, still talking like he knows me or something. the sad part is: that he does. so i go and txt my friend liz and i saty at her house for a few hours, and she ends up bringing me home. the end. Today: I had probation, I woke up at 6, 7, and 926 to be ther at 10, i get there and the guys a retard, Ihe wants me to go to school 8 hours a week, i wanted to tell him, ill go when i feel like it. i also told him id rather go to jail- i have farnham once every week for an hour, probation two times a moth, for 25 mins or so, they want me to go to class 8 hours a week and still find a job. #1- I dont wake up Usually until noon. (unless i have an appointment) #2- I WALK everywhere.. #3- GED classes suck, Ive told him before i need help in math, ive been asking for a tutor for 3!!!! years, have i gotten one? No, do the teachers help me? NO!! they chit chat all day.. #4- there is no number 4 _____________________________________________________ On a better note i made a cl ad like last month, I got a shit ton of responces back and this one really stood out, his name is Mishael (My-shay el) he's the sweetest nigg ever, he's cute, nice lips, ect. ZHe has two kids, and they are half white. which is nice. well anywho, he came and met my family about 2 weeks ago, that was a trip i though, beck kept saying nigga's and nigger and he didnt care, good thing cause i say it ALOT. so that nighht,m he was going to spend the nighht, cause he lives in NEDROW, im like geesh, thats a haul. he says he is but then we are getting horny, and we end up doing eachother.. so he's like im gonna leave ill call if i come back. he never called. actually i didnt hear from him until LAst thursday.. he lost his wallet and my number was in there.. he says he wants to see me. i said mhm, im sure you do. idk. i just dk. Current Mood: blah

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November 15th, 2009

mowmow

11:12 pm - "Stay with me today." Let's see my weekend consisted of nothing. I was off friday, did go to the movies with Brother tay tay ashlie terrah and Linden. We saw the fourth kind. it was alright not as scary as Paranormal activity, but yeah a little freaky. I worked early Saturday morning. Did nothing after work I was suposed to hang out with Anthony, friday, and then Saturday, but of course that didn't happen. I was invited to Dylan's going away party but I didn't go because I thought I was going to see Anthony, which ruined my night, so I went to sleep around 10:30. I worked today. I only have two days this week, I told them to call me if the need someone, so let's hope they do. I don't wanna go in on the weekend tho, so If they do call me i preobably won't go in. I wanna have a weekend off it will be wonderful! So this weekend maybe hanging out with Anthony, but I doubt it. I am not gonna hope on it this time. if we don't end up hanging out, then I am done... lol. Probably won't be because I say this every entry.... I am dumb yes i know. Tony's bday is this week, and I wanna get him a cake and surprise him =] I know none of them do anything like that for me, but I want to because I am oh so nice, and I know tony will appreciate it. To bad nothing ever sparked up with me and Tony, but we are still friends and that is GREAT. I miss hanging out with people. I cannot wait to get a car. So now i have 1400 something. I am getting back up there, but who knows now with the hours I am getting i might have to take some out for rent... I hate growing up and all of these resposbilities. Anywhooo Thanksgiving is almost here, it came FAST thats fer sure, next it'll be Christmas. JAymee is coming out for a week which is exciting but I will priobably be working my whole life =[ I think i am done... <333 Current Music: The Used

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November 12th, 2009

mowmow

12:49 am - "I know you don't feel the same way, but sometimes I tell myself you think of me." Okay So I have been working this past week. Winco keeps calling me in which is good because I can use as many hours As I can get!! I had Kristie's car for a day which was amazing! I cannot wait to get my own!! lol. Me and Sam went to the used Concert yesterday and let me just say they were so freakin AMAZING! I Would so seee them again. Me and Sam kept getting split up cause of stupid guys lol. Let me just say I was handleing my own, I stayed in a pretty good spot the whole time. I don't think I have ever sweet that much in my life. My hair was like freakin drenched, it was bodies on bodies. My whole body is swore, and my arms are burised. I swear it was like people indian burning me because my arms were getting stuck between people, but it was totally worth it!!! The Almost was NOT very good at all, oh welkl lo. Friday is my day off, and if anyone calls me to go in I am NOT answering haha. I am maybe posibly hanging out with Anthony, but it will probably not happen just like the last time. Is it sad that I am totally annoyed when I am in my room, and people come in and watch tv? There is one in the living room, I know you want to be in here to use my computer... Can you just go buy your own? I came home from work the other day and Brittany was wearing my boots, it really irritated me. Like don't touch my stuff without asking please. Like I have so much that really just bugs the FUCK out of me... but i am to nice to say anything.... SO Thanksgiving is almost here it is crazyy! This year has gone by so FAST! Next it will be Christmas, and then New years. So I was at work today getting some money from this Girl Lashonda and this girl is in her line, and I was thinking to myself she looks SOO farmiliar. And then all off a sudden she was all did you use to hook up with Mike Ayers... Who just asks people that in while they're shopping? I was all uhh noo. lol. She was all sorry I wasn't trying to but you're business on blast... I was like wtf bitch. IU'm still trying to figure out who she is.... Oh well lol. Welp I am off to sleep now. Goodnight<33 Current Mood: tired Current Music: It's always sunny in Philidelphia

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